So many years have come to pass since last I wrote in this journal. 2009 can you fuckin believe it?? Im going to be 21. Quick update on my life as of new. I've been working at the same job now for 1 year. Thats a great accomplishment I would have to say seeing as how i've never been able to keep a job that long. But I love it. I remember after my first day I actulley thanked God and im not very religious or anything. Im Back in Alaska. Been here for a year now. Lots of experiences this time...crazy shit like always. Love is a slow and painful death. That sounds so morbid but thats how I see it right now. Its been so long since I even wrote in anything I had forgotten how good it feels to vent your feelings by typing it out. I've learned alot of lessions so far this year and alot last year. I think honestly I've grown as an individual. I thank god for the weed I smoke to keep me sane through this hard times of struggle. Tribulations and trials and test and more test. Cause and effect seems so plausible to me right now. You get what you give and you recive much more every dreamed when you can finally live a selfless existence. A Humbled Soul. I dont know what the fuck im talking about im too stoned to think. I did write a stoney ass short story though I wonder if I should type it all out. Its kinda long but not really. Im really bored so I dont know what Im going to do now but i kinda feel like setting up a new look on my journal since it seems so old to me. Im thinking about renting out this club for my bday and just having a privite club party for my brithday. That would be the shit man and everyone i want can come alls I gotta do is get a bar tender and someone to run the front door and I got my own club for the night. Ooooh shit watch out muthafuckas I wanna rent like a roots bad and have a roots concert and a DJ to play all the club music of course. Well Im starting to feel real tired so I think ima head to bed now. Oh. Good music that I suggest you should listen to. Alcia Keys-Diary
Jesus its been forever since I updated in this thing. Well, I got some new pictures of me since I just seen all the other ones I posted on here . God im so ugly. Not that I got any better looking =D Here take a look.
My hair is Hella Long now.
I took this really nerddy pic when i was stoned and bored.
and then i got one with a funny hair on lol
and then theres thisone
Kk im done. Yeah I know. Im so handsom huh HA! -choaks-
Its been a while since I've updated cause I dont know why. Its not like im busy or something doing things cause really im not. Maybe im just over this livejournal thing...but maybe not cause im updating at the moment. I wanted to update my journal after I had tripped on some hard core mushroom action...but I guess I didnt find my way back to reality yet. To all of my Internet friends...im still Alive.
The concert is in an hour. I dont have a camera with me to take a picture, but you could not believe the smile on my face. I have 20 joints in my can, which is in my pocket. And five of them are diesel buds. My heat is fluttering hard core.
Im stoned...and I've been thinking about my life. I used to be a sad little depressed goth teenager person...But that just sucked. I used to take anti-depressents, cause I was weird. And now Im not. Im perfectly fine now. And you can be too! Now for just $19.99, you can have temporary happiness ( with a slight increase of appetite) Rolled for you in just seconds! Your Green Happiness Kit Will include. +$20 Worth of Weed. + Your choice of a wonderful blunt wrap. + An Instruction manual to further enhance your skills in the art of blunt rolling!
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Find yourself a lighter. ( preferably a BIC one.)
Then hit that shit! Nice and hard!
( !!Warning!! Smoking ANYTHING is really bad for your lungs. As for side effects specific to marijuana smoking, uhh.. like, man, uhh.., I forgot.)
I bought a New Pipe the other day. $25 Dollars thats it. From the moment I saw it I knew I had to have it. It was an instent connection between me and Sherm. My Lovely Mushroom pipe.
I emailed me more pictures from my camera phone. Some from the Alpha Blondie concert, some randoms...
This is Windori, the most funnest persons while drunk. Jeena, also funny while drunk...( likes to throw things) Kaika...Jeena's Husband. Our Doggie Kila! Hes Awesome
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4. [x] I think I'm ugly sometimes most of the time [x] I have many scars. [ ] I tan easily. [ ] wish my hair was a different color. [ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color. [ ] I have a tattoo. [x] I am self-conscious about my appearance. [ ] I have/I've had braces. [ ] I wear glasses. [x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. [x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger. [ ] I have more than 2 piercings. [ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears. [ ] I have freckles. Family/Home Life [x] I've sworn at my parents. [x] I've run away from home. [ ] I've been kicked out of the house. [ ] My biological parents are together. [x ] I have a sibling less than one year old. [ ] I want to have kids someday. [ ] I've had children. [ ] I've lost a child. School/Work [ ] I'm in school. [x] I have a job. [ ] I've fallen asleep at work/school. [ } I almost always do my homework. [ ] I've missed a week or more of school. [ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years. [ x] I failed more than 1 class last year. [x ] I've stolen something from my job [ ] I've been fired. [x] I've skipped school/Class Embarrassment [x ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation. [ ] Disney movies still make me cry. [ ] I've peed from laughing. [x] I've snorted while laughing. [x] I've laughed so hard I've cried. [ ] I've glued my hand to something [x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose. [ ] I've had my pants rip in public Health [ ] I was born with a disease/impairment. [x] I've gotten stitches. [ x] I've broken a bone. [ ] I've had my tonsils removed. [x] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend. [ x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed. [ ] I had a serious surgery. [x] I've had chicken pox. Traveling [x] I've riden over 200 miles in one day. [x] I've been on a plane. [ ] I've been to Canada. [ ] I've been to Mexico. [ ] I've been to Niagara Falls. [ ] I've been to Japan. [ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans. [ ] I've been to Europe. [ ] I've been to Africa. [ ] I've been to Asia. Experiences [x] I've gotten lost in my city. [x] I've seen a shooting star. [x] I've wished on a shooting star. [x] I've seen a meteor shower. [ ] I've gone out in public in my pajamas. [x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator [ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts. [x ] I've been to a casino. [ ] I've been skydiving. [ ] I've been an abuse victim. [ ] I've gone skinny dipping. [x] I've played spin the bottle. [ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour. [ ] I've crashed a car. [x] I've been Skiing [x] I've been in a play. [X] I've met someone in person from the internet. [x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue. [x] I've seen the Northern Lights. [x] I've sat on a roof top at night. [x] I've played chicken. [x] I've played a prank on someone. [x] I've ridden in a taxi. [x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show [x] I've eaten Sushi. [x] I've been snowboarding. Relationships [x] I'm single [ ] I'm in a relationship. [ ] I'm engaged. [ ] I'm married. [x] I've had someone cheat on me. [ ] I've gone on a blind date. [x] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper. [x] I miss someone right now. [ ] I have a fear of commitment. [ ] I have a fear of abandonment. [x] I've cheated in a relationship [ ] I've gotten divorced [x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back. [x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't. [x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did. [ ] I've kept something from a past relationship. Sexuality [ ] I've had a crush on a teacher. [ ] I love to flirt. [x] I've been kissed in the rain. [x] I've hugged a stranger. [x] I have kissed a stranger. Honesty/Crime [ ] I am a terrible liar. [x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't [x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't. [x] I've snuck out of my house. [x] I have lied to my parents about where I am. [ ] I am keeping a secret from the world [x] I've cheated while playing a game. [x] I've run a red light. [ ] I've been suspended from school. [x] I've witnessed a crime. [x] I've been in a fist fight. [ ] I've been arrested. [x] I've shoplifted Drugs/Alcohol [x] I've consumed alcohol. [ ] I regularly drink. [x] I've passed out from drinking. [x] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months. [x] I've smoked weed [x] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them. [x] I'm a stoner. [ ] I've snorted cocaine. [X] I've eaten shrooms. [x] I've popped E. [x] I've inhaled Nitrous. [ ] I've done hard drugs. [x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick. [ ] I can't swallow pills. [ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem [x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression. [x] I shut others out when I'm depressed. [x] I take anti-depressants.( use to..) [ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic. [x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it. [x] I've hurt myself on purpose. [ ] I'm addicted to self harm. [x] I've woken up crying. [x] I've cried myself to sleep. [x] Seeing a therapist.( Use to) Death and Suicide [x] I'm afraid of dying. [x] I hate funerals. [x] I've seen someone dying. [x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide. [x] Someone close to me has committed suicide. [x] I've planned my own suicide. [ ] I've attempted suicide.(dont worry, long ago) [x] I've written a eulogy for myself. Materialism [ ] I own over 5 rap CDs. [x] I own an iPod or MP3 player. [ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga. [ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece. [x] I own something from Hot Topic. [x] I own something from Pac Sun. [X] I collect comic books. [x] I own something from The Gap. [ ] I own something I got on e-bay. [ ] I own something from Abercrombie. [ ] I own something from Hollister Co. Political/Social Attitudes [ ] In general, I don't like people. [ ] I'm a feminist. [x] I'm outgoing. [ ] I listen to political music. [ ] I'm Democratic. [ ] I'm Republican. [ ] I'm liberal. (radical not liberal) [x] I don't like Bush [x] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up. [ ] I am for Bush. [ ] im religious. [ ] I dress fairly modestly. [x] My attitude is, "If you've got it, flaunt it." Random [x] I can sing well [x] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant. [ ] I open up to others easily. [x] I watch the news. [ ] I don't kill bugs. [ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme. [x] I curse regularly. [x] I sing in the shower. [ ] I am a morning person. [ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone. [ ] I'm a snob about grammar [ ] I am a sports fanatic. [x] I twirl my hair [ ] I have "x"s in my screen name [ ] I love being neat [x] I love Spam [x] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day [x] I bake well. [ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue [x]I would wear pajamas to school. [ ] I like Martha Stewart. [ ] I know how to shoot a gun. [x] I am in love with love. [ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS. [x] I laugh at my own jokes. [ ] I eat fast food weekly. [x] I believe in ghosts. [ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message. [x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class. [X] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room. [x] I am really ticklish. [ ] I love white chocolate [x] I bite my nails. [x] I play video games. [x] I'm good at remembering faces. [ ] I'm good at remembering names [ ] I'm good at remembering dates. [x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. [x] My Answers are totally honest.
I was Ambushed by Jehovah Whitness yesterday while sitting in my open garage and smoking. They spoke to me about the end of the world and told me god would be comming soon to heal this broken planet. They also gave me a pamphlet on topics such as " What God will expect of you this comming Judgement Day". It supplied pictures of men beating they're wives, and also trailer trash looking men drinking beer on a couch. I was taken a back by their lack of respect for me and my thought on all of this. I mean...they didnt even ask if I believed in a God. So I told them straight up.
" What the hell are you guys talking about man? Don't you know the world has ended already. Take a look around you, Where is your god in your time of need? "
They looked at me very confused and started up again...
" I know you find it hard to believe, but he is comming. he has promised us all eternal life with out pain. "
I laughed...hard. Then picked up my brass pipe and continued to smoke. No I didnt care they stood right there, then I took pictues with my camera phone ( which I wish had flash)
Three days at a hotel, 2 rooms, both bath tubs filled with moose head, major full on open bar with all of your basics. Jack, Paul, Johnny, Jim, tons of different vodka ( Strawberry soda and rasberry vodka is so effen good) But best of all, our pal Riggsy had 8 plants that he had harvest. I was in heaven. We rolled three huge blunts and headed off to the hott tub ( The pool was open 24 hours!!! Fuck yeah) We got nice and stoned then played hide and seek in the pool. While I was swimming I found a fucking underwater cave thinger. I wanted to hotbox that fucker so we were trying to come up with ways to get our blunts in there without it getting wet. It took me an hour to fuckin think of putting it in a ziplock. So I ran all the way back up to our room in search of a one, came back down, mission accomplished, we were stoned once again! We went back up to the room and there was choak people! I was like..where the fuck did all these people come from. It was all Sandy's friends they were going to this night club Spats. Me and a whole bunch of other people started playing drinking games, which fucked everyone up. Now were all stoned and drunk. Then we start playing Uno! W00t. Funness. Anyways. Pictures comming soon. Tons and Tons of pictures.
Shes comming through the room tonight, Dressed in the sillout by candle light, but you can tell when she comes into the room, by the sweet smell of her perfume How many men have tried to tame this one? She only claims shes havin fun. She'll steal your breath with just one kiss and leave your mind out there in the abyss, Im talking about Mary Jane...
Im fuckin..super stoned right now. I smoked the fattest blunt i've ever seen. hahahhah
Hi bestest bestest bestest friend! Im so effen sorry it took so long for me to write to you. No-one gave me any kind of address to get a hold of you. But on a more serious note...How are you? I miss you so much Kira you wouldn't even believe. I've changed so hardcore since I moved to Hawaii. You wouldn't believe all the shit im doing. I would have never imagined that i'd make more friends then I did in the past 6 months then I have living in Alaska. Its kind of fucked up if you think about it. I know im going to sound really gay and corney right now but who gives a fuck. I've had sooo many experiences while on Maui. i've been to so many parties. I've smoked so much fuckin green shit. I've talked to soo many strangers, something I would never have done before. And I blame it all on you. Your the one who taught me not to care about anything, but mostly about what people think of you. Im so much happier over here I kind of dread going back to alaska. Its like...What the fuck am I going to do now? You know...God I miss you =(
Anyways. Every-time im drunk I think of you. Im fucking serious. When I get drunk I think about all the drama back in Alaska. Im so use to it, so its kinda weird when I have none here...Not that thats a bad thing, cause thats a good thing, its just weird being happy now, after so many years of being lost. I guess I can say I kinda " Found" Myself. Hahahha thats so funny. Hmmm..When Im drunk I love to sing out loud, I dont give a fuck whos listening...and I always sing a song that reminds me of you and makes me cry every fucking time. You know the one....Bohemian Rhapsody from Lauryn Hill...yeah, the lyrics are a fucking knife to my heart. I bet by the end of this letter Im going to cry. I'll win cause I know i'll cry. I really do fucking miss you...
I hate relying on my father for everything, even though I know he would give me whatever I wanted. I dont take this for advantage. Im too much of a good person..I know that no one has come to visit you since me and my dad and that sucks major ass. I told my dad that he better go on christmas or I will be so pissed. Im going to see if my mom can go too. Did you know she had a fucking baby?! Isn't that fuckin nuts! Time is flying by so fast its really scary..
I remember when all this shit went down with you how paranoid my mom and dad was. Thinking someone was going to attack us or somthing -Laughs- I really didnt want to come to Maui in the first place. I wanted to stay put, I wanted to visit you every day you were away. If I never came to Maui I would probably be visiting you as much as I could. And with that last sentence Im fucking balling my eyes out. It really sucks what happened. Do you still talk to Mario? Are you guys still together? If you can write me back I hope you do, Kira. Don't worry im not finished with this letter yet -sigh-.
Emily's been traviling around the fucking country. Shes working for some kind of company, promoting shit for them everywhere. Shes really lucky. Shes the first one in our family to really be out there in the world on her own. Experiencing all kinda of different things. Right now shes with Cecile at her college in oregon going to all kind of partys and shit. Meeting all kind of new people. Mana is living with my dad and Francis now. Hes gonna start going to Dimond High our old stomping grounds Hahahah! I can't believe how many times we skipped school and never got caught. Now that I have your address i'll probably be writing you alot. SO expect to get letters from now on...Well..I hope this letter gets to you..
Words on a piece of paper will never express how much I REALLY miss you...All I can do now is to wait for you to get out of that stupid correctional center shit -sigh- I love you Kira. Please don't feel like no one is there for you cause I will always be there for you, like you were for me...I know you'll get out. Dont let anyone ever make you feel that you cant get something you deserve. Love you...
Tomorrow Im buying $800 dollars worth of weed and throwing my 18 birthday party. When everyone is nice and stoned I'll anouce Its not really my birthday.
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